To have a horrifying experience is one thing. To begin to understand, entirely another, with enormous implications growing exponentially. I think of Frater Parzival. I could not comprehend yet what he was telling me the Summer of '16.
Shortly after the Venus conjuration and appearance of the woman with the eye issue and the void-faced Goat and the flies and all, she came again in dream. We were in Paris. My dead father was there. I was locked out of a building.
PGM IV 1-25, also called, the Great Paris Papyrus. I believe she was pointing me to this text. The woman told me not to watch TV. Rather I should study. I have been. The woman whom I call Venus Calva was pointing me to knowledge of what happened to me. τελετη. Telete. That's what the rite in the PGM is titled. Stephen Skinner in "Techniques of Graeco-Egyptian Magic" states that even though Betz or the translator Hubert Martin made the comment that the purpose of the rite is not clear - it is. Skinner states that telete is "initiation into the Mysteries".
This is the translation of PGM IV 1-25:
I know that's a lot to take in. This is only part one of the blog post. The entire blog and podcast have only been a prelude. Coptic hierogamy. The woman took off a black wig. She was bald, thus my name for her, Venus Calva. In the very beginning of my experience I saw a circle of lights high in the sky, rotating together. They terrified me. Next a small black goat came walking down the street near to where the lights were above.
In part 2 we are going directly into Chapter 4 (Fire) of Aleister Crowley's Liber LVX and the commentary. If you now know what I only now know, you know what Goat was. No thing has proved itself more true to me than the Hermetic sciences, or more true than myth, dream and vision.