Psilocybin Microdosing Day 2 - Thoughts

"Mars University" Season 1, Episode 11 of Futurerama

"Mars University" Season 1, Episode 11 of Futurerama

The last two planetary initiations, Jupiter and the Sun, seem to have very much to do with the expanding of perspective. There's a reason Old Man Saturn is on top. Others simply do not have the hunger that would burn so deeply as to cause them to eat their own children. Morally reprehensible you say?

If anyone comes to me and does not hate his own father and mother and wife and children and brothers and sisters, yes, and even his own life, he cannot be my disciple
— Jesus, Luke 14:26

Christ told his people to be as wise as serpents and as innocent as doves in the midst of wolves. They have severely failed at both wisdom and innocence. To be as wise as a serpent one would have to eat from the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil. Is that not from whence Luciferian Gnosis came? But wait...

Then the LORD God said, “Behold, the man has become like one of us in knowing good and evil. Now, lest he reach out his hand and take also of the tree of life and eat, and live forever—“
— Genesis 3:22

Makes you wonder exactly who "us" is, yes? I say with the Reformer Luther that the Devil is God's Devil. You must come to accept the Shadow as filling a divine office. Especially as your Shadow manifest in your Sphere. The sooner you have your face-to-face in the wilderness, the sooner you can get on with coming to a perspective of yourself that is beyond your ego, or in qabalistic terms, your Nephesh, your animal soul that resides in the most material of the worlds, Assiah.

Tiphareth is the lens through which the magician should properly see the world. This Sphere is where we are healed and where we heal from. It is this Sphere that is the engine of the Tree of Life. Anyone that has knowledge of solar systems should have intuited this, but to push the point further, here is what Crowley had to say of Tiphareth:

This Sephira is in some respects the most important of all. It is the centre of the whole system; it is the only Sephira below the Abyss which communicates directly with Kether. It is fed directly from Chokmah and Binah; also from Chesed and Geburah. It is thus admirably fitted to dominate the lower Sephiroth; it is balanced both vertically and horizontally. In the planetary system it represents the Sun; in the system of Tetragrammaton it represents the Son. The entire geometrical complex of the Ruach may be regarded as an expansion from Tiphareth. It represents consciousness in its most harmonized and balanced form; definitely in form, not only in idea, as in the case of the number Two. In other words, the Son is an interpretation of the Father in terms of the mind. [Tiphareth is] thus representative of [the four] elements at their practical best.
— Book of Thoth, p.181

Chesed is essential in preparing the initiate for stepping into a place of divine authority. Offices of authority are not simply stumbled onto. They are appointed. Chesed is present within each person. Every single person is appointed to an office of divine authority. Let me tell you something friend. If not knowing what that office of divine authority is does not keep you up at night—if you do not feel the pressures of a deeply rooted anxiety building within your bowels— you are in a truly pitiable state of being. You incarnate, you die. It's not a long interval in between. Trust me - it is not long. I suspect we incarnate over and over and over living life as a renewable resource and so too expendable resource until we can come to knowledge and understanding. 

These two initiations have brought to the forefront of my perceiving ability the reality of karmic forces. My mother recently showed Kelly an old diary she kept from when I was a baby. In it, mom had written that before I was born my grandmother had dreamt of me, and told my mother that I would understand everything everyone said. Binah. Saturn. Understanding, and whereas the magical power of Tiphareth is The Vision of the Harmony of Things, Binah is The Vision of Sorrow

In my life-long quest to understand, sorrow has come along the side of that understanding. Knowledge brings fear. In one's self, yes, but that passes. It is the fear in others that causes sorrow. I am not sure if it is with everyone else as it is within me. In the least it is by degree, because all of you have Binah present within you. Life is very hard, though some live it without every having discovered this. Accepting this and accepting the fact that challenges are the only thing that can bring discipline and a path to success in your life is not only to own knowledge but also wisdom.

No matter who it is you are or where you are in life, you have a Work to do—a very specific Work. You will know it as your True Work because doing it will transform your very being. You may have small beginnings. Small inner changes. Seek them every day. They have an accumulative effect. Anything that comes in the way of this Work being done must be despised. Think about that—jobs, relationships, cars, houses—all a materialistic society's favorite things to attach themselves to. Don't fuck it up because every contact you have with another cannot help but transfer part of you to them. Remember—our perspective is that of The Vision of the Harmony of Things