One of my dreams in my early 20s so shook me that I immediately woke up and sought out the hill on which it took place.
The dream was this, though if I find the dream journal I wrote it in at the time, I'll come back and give the exact wording - I remember it plainly enough:
It took me a while to find the actual site of my dream - I knew it was close - but it wouldn't be until I actually saw it and stood before it that I would know it. You see, the dream landscape wasn't like the modern landscape - there were no roads, cars or businesses. It was wilderness in the dream.
I remember that day like yesterday. The hill I found by "feeling" (meaning I drove around and then walked Biltmore Village like a madman until I came across it) was to the left of the Biltmore House entrance in Biltmore Village - not a 10-minute walk from the house I grew up in and then lived at. If you've been to Biltmore Village, it is the center of Asheville, immediately south of down town. I knew that this was the place my dream took place as sure as anything. The land seemed still merged with my dream land, with the Dragon Lady.
As an esotericist and mystic, I have an understanding now that could have never come then. I was drinking very heavily - I would continue to for years. But I believe the Dragon Lady summoned me before her. In her compassion she would help me out of where I was, which, well makes me tremendously sad for that young man. I was so helplessly ignorant of life, and so utterly without direction. To me now, Goat, the Black Dragon, represents what dragons always represent. A transformative encounter. The dragon's horrible power must be tamed. Emperors sit upon the dragon throne. Many deities are depicted on dragon thrones, or like Guanyin above, together with dragons. The dragon is raw power, chaotic, dangerous. But, to become a hero, to become a great person, to become more than you are, you must face and struggle with the Dragon. Embraced and so conquered. Tamed. Utilized. Integrated. You merge. You become more whole, more who you are divinely called to be. You leveled up.
As one of these mystical fellows, I also have the ability to look back in time and see the story arc in my dream life. Let's jump ahead some years to May 27, 2015. This date does not at all seem that long ago. I had two years prior began a more serious approach into the mysteries. I still didn't know a damn thing - not what I know today. Just knowing a tiny little piece of truth will open realms of love and hope and meaning in life. I am so thankful for where I have been brought to, from where I was. This is from my dream journal of that night, 3 years ago:
These two dreams may not seem too spectacular to you, but to me, they were real events. I've often heard it said that the mystic makes no distinguishing between wakefulness and dream. Which is which?
I want to say so much more. I want to talk about Tara (meaning "star") and about Guanyin and about Venus, Inana, Anael. I want to go on at length as the theologian in me would, and you would probably be fucking bored, and I'd get lost in minutiae. It wouldn't help that much anyway, because I am living it. Experiencing them. Then reading of them. Then going, "Aha!" They say a picture is worth a thousand words. Here then are many thousand words for you to dwell upon:
Long ago in an age before which
there was nothing else,
the Victorious One, the Tathagata Dundubhisvara
came into existence and was known as the Light
of the Various Worlds.
The Princess "Moon of Wisdom"
had the highest respect for his teaching,
and for ten million, one hundred thousand years,
made offerings to this Enlightened One,
to his attendant Sravakas,
and to countless members of the Sangha of Bodhisattvas.
The offerings she prepared each day
were in value comparable to all the precious things
which filled a distance of twelve yojanas
in each of the ten directions,
leaving no intermediate spaces unfilled.
Finally after all this
she awoke to the first concepts of Bodhi-Mind.
At that time some monks said to her:
"It is as a result of these,
your roots of virtuous actions,
that you have come into being in this female form.
If you pray that your deeds accord with the teachings,
then indeed on that account you will change your form
to that of a man, as is befitting."
After much discourse she finally replied,
"In this life there is no such distinction
as "male" and "female,"
neither of "self-identity,"
nor any perception,
and therefore attachment to ideas
of "male" and "female"
is quite worthless.
The weak-minded are always deluded by this."
And so she vowed:
"There are many who wish to gain enlightenment
in a man's form,
and there are but few who wish to work
for the welfare of living beings
in a female form.
Therefore may I, in a female body,
work for the welfare of beings
right until Samsara has been emptied."
Much thanks to Bankok Jonathan for being a channel in the East's meeting with West.